sigh, i need to break out of this 'write-when-you-feel-like-shit' pattern
and start documenting nice stuff too, instead of just depressing entries.
i hate burdening people with my thoughts.
it just makes them feel bad for me and that is the last thing i want.
i'm filled with so much bitterness and negativity that im turning into someone i hate to become.
but as hard as i tried to fight it, i just cannot help feeling the way i do.
My heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you, no one will ever know.